New Career vs. Old Career

Every time I start to feel guilty that I'm not bringing in any income, I think about the days when I worked at the financial company (I won't mention any names in this blog to be somewhat respectful of the company's reputation). I KNOW most of you can remember how absolutely miserable I was while I worked there. Ian of course can tell you all the stories and can remember me coming home an average of three times a week crying and begging him to let me quit. The poor guy felt so bad for me but at the time we financially couldn't afford for me to quit. I either had to find a new job or we had to wait for his big raise. Obviously, it was very difficult to find a new job in this rotten economy. I started looking for a new job when I was on maternity leave with Rayliana!! That long ago! And believe me I wasn't even being picky about the kind of job I would do, that's how bad I wanted to get out of my that job!

I worked there for a total of two and a half years. Unfortunately, they were the best and worst years of my life. All of my huge life changes occurred during those years, I had Rayliana, Ian and I had a wonderful wedding and honeymoon, and we bought our house. At the same, they were absolutely the worst years ever. I lived for the weekends, which really only consisted of Friday evening and Saturday because every Sunday I just anticipated the next week coming that it ruined the whole day off! Some mornings I woke up, got ready, and had to literally force myself to eat something because I was so sick to my stomach. I was just telling Ian the other night that I feel like those years were a waste of my life! His response was, "That's really sad!" The only good that came out of that job was the life experience. If I ever work in a place that starts to even get close to how miserable I was at this unnamed financial company, I will do something to change it a lot sooner than I did the first time.

Every time I talked to friends or family about it, they all had the same response, "Well, how bad can it be?" "Just stick it out a little bit longer." Of course, this irritated me because I didn't think any of them had worked in such a hostile working environment as the one I was stuck in. I won't give complete details because let's face it Prescott is such a small town and I don't want to "bash" anyone in particular in my blog. I will say this however, I would rather work at McDonald's then to ever work for this financial company again! 

I guess I decided to blog about my experience so that people would understand why I am so much happier staying home with my daughter. Nobody is here to tell me that I can't see a doctor when I need to or that I can't call in sick! UGH! Nobody should have to work like that, 40 hours a week is a lot of time to spend somewhere you hate! When it starts affecting your personal life and life necessities, such as health and well being, it's time to make a change! You can't grow unless you have change! So when someone criticizes me for being a stay at home mom, just know that I've paid my dues!