Anxiety Attack!

So lately I've been freaking out about everything! Could be because partly that's just my personality and/or because I'm pregnant and crazy. I'm worried about what to do with Rayliana when we have to leave to go to the hospital, I'm worried that we haven't set up the other baby room yet (partly because I'm waiting 'til after my baby shower), I'm worried because my baby shower invitations aren't even started yet...and Ashley I know you're reading this and this has nothing to do with you not doing your job it again has to do with me being crazy! I'm worried about going through labor AGAIN, I'm worried about having two children only two and a half years apart-a newborn and a toddler AAAHHHHHHHH! Oh and I'm worried about our financial situation because we can't catch a break- first our Benz pretty much dies and we have to buy a new car, then Ian's truck has $500 worth of problems with it, then we've received three bills for Rayliana totalling almost $700! UGH. Poor, poor Ian pretty much has to calm me down while I cry! Like earlier today, we made fish for lunch and the stone was on the stove. Like a dork, I put the stone back in the oven WITHOUT wearing any gloves or pot holders! I sort of dropped it back on the stove and started crying. It didn't even hurt all that bad I think I was more embarrassed that I would lift it bare-handed! Ha Ha Ha!

So God help me through the rest of this pregnancy (12.5 weeks to go!) and my uncontrollable emotions and anxiety! And all of the stuff I'm worried about really aren't big deals at all! Well, okay maybe the labor and the having a toddler and an infant thing but other than that we're in good shape people! I don't remember being this emotional the first time I was pregnant! But several things are different than my first pregnancy I suppose...Rayliana moves and kicks a lot more than Scarlett does, I've gained a total of 6 pounds so far compared to my grand total of 43 last time, and my ankles and feet don't look like one combined formation!